Yes, I am actually sitting down to blog. It has been a long time. Well, I am going to talk about what I went through this summer. And no, it isn't about James being gone and having a hard child to take care of by myself. I actually have an amazing toddler and he was very easy this summer. I went through a stressful couple of events that brought on acute stress syndrome. I basically fell apart. I wasn't even able to go outside my house with having a panic attack. I took a brown paper bag with me everywhere I went and I had to ask friends and family to do the basic grocery shopping for me. I felt horrible to do this, but I would have felt worse being away from home and not being able to function with a toddler that is more helpless than me.
Thanks to a very wonderful friend, she told me to get help. I did and even though it took some time, some medication and some counseling, I am almost 100% better with a goal of being an even better person in the long run.
I was terrified to get on medication. In fact, I was so terrified, I had to have another friend "slap me in the face" (over the phone) because I got hysterical about it. Thankfully, I had wonderful friends and family (one brother in particular, and one amazingly loving, patient and supportive husband) to support me, and wonderful Doctors to help me. I am really enjoying my therapy sessions and have even gotten to the point of looking forward to situations that might cause anxiety to see how I deal with it. I have had anxiety my whole life and I am really glad that this happened because I learned the most valuable thing through my therapy sessions: How to cope with anxiety and get it under control before it gets out of control. Medicine cannot do that for you 100% of the time.
I have learned so much from this experience and I have had a lot of fun working on things. I just wanted to post this for those of you that might be having a hard time and don't know what to do. Trust me, I did not want to ask for medical help, but I knew that I could not be a good mother to my son if I could not take him outside in our own yard among many other things I wasn't able to do this summer.
If anyone would like to contact me, please do so. I feel that I have learned so much that I am very willing to share and that is why I have posted this.
4 comments:
What a positive outlook! I hope you continue to feel better! Take care of yourself. I know where to come if I ever need help with this! :)
:) I sent you an e-mail
Kista! You are so amazing! I am so glad you are doing well. I had no idea! I am glad you were able to feel like you will be a better person on the other side for all you went through. And, it's true. Maybe you went through it so you can help others. Good job!
Glad things are going better for you. I know that many people feel the way you were/are feeling so it's great that you are sharing. I have always felt that you never know how your actions can affect another person. You never know how something you have said or done can change someones life so I always speak my mind and I try to share my experiences whenever possible. Thanks for sharing! Sending you all love from CA
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